Positive thoughts Prevail

Ughh! I started out reading other people's Blogs and I started to feel confused on how I could create my own, original Blog. Last night I wanted to write about patience, waiting and how I feel being just in the house for nearly 6 months, patiently waiting for something good in store for me and my plans in life with my loving man. This morning i am confused and not sure on how to organize my thoughts because honestly I have a lot in my mind that I feel somehow compelled to share and just express it on paper.  Although I am not going into details at the moment, I will just write and attempt, as best as I'm able to express my thoughts on things I have learned along the way and how I managed to survive this waiting game.

It's inevitable that I feel down especially when negative thoughts are begin to bombard my mind. I pick myself up and try my best to get back on track again, telling myself that I should not dwell on sad thoughts because it doesn't improve matters at all! It just makes me feel sad and self-pity comes in. Every time I am in my most vulnerable moments,it seems like inspirational quotes find me by accident, for instance I may open up Facebook and immediately see a positive post that changes my mood

Everyday is a routine. Don't get me wrong,90% of my life in the US is all about happy and good vibes with the support that I get from my soul mate. There are just times that i feel sad and a little bit depressed. Why? Due to the fact that I wanna get a job and start schooling, maybe for a Masters or another field that I can land in the near future. Is it too much to ask? I think so... because in the first place, we don't have a budget to support my studies at this time and secondly I need to help my family back home. I need to pay back first for all the good deeds that they have done for me. I think I should get a job first then eventually after I will sumbit my TOR to the World Education System (praying that my grades pass! Crossing my fingers and even my toes! I am worried because I was not the type of student of working hard in my college days compared in my elementary years and secondary years.There's regret, but things happened!:( sad). The WES evaluation will determine if I will pursue my degree or take up/shift to another field. I have my plans, but I lay it down to God to be my captain in this journey.

I was not a brainy-type of a person not even a connoisseur of any one subject in particular . I have achieved everything because of hard work. I studied hard to pass my subjects. That is why I always say that it's all about hard work and determination and being grateful for the wisdom that God gives us.

So much about my past. I want to also share how I've managed this waiting game so far. Today I read a Tweet that said..."If God answers your prayer, He's increasing ur faith. If He Delays, He's increasing ur Patience. If He doesn't answer, He has something BETTER". I absolutely agree and believe that, Yes! He's also increasing my faith and i believe that He has something better. It's all about being patient over the things that we want. Patience is a Virtue, so they say! This virtue is something I’ve been using or should I say abusing since 2010. Never have I needed to become this patient until now. It seems to me that nowadays all I’ve ever had to do was be patient. There's also good in waiting...I learned a lot of things, I learned how to cook, how to organize, how to become a happy wife and so much more. Waiting is not bad, especially when you are enjoying your time and keeping yourself busy during your idle time.

Today I want to make up my mind that I should always be patient for everything! I will not stop dreaming and doing something to achieve my dreams. All I can do right now is to pray and do my part to study and read a lot. Having a positive disposition can also help me to not be depressed over things that are out of my control.

And lastly, I am forever grateful that God has blessed me with an incredible man that is always at my side. he is the perfect reminder of how lucky and blessed I am. My parents, especially my mother have always been supportive in every decision that I make. She never fails in giving me valuable advice along the way. I can feel that I have a strong support system that I can always count on. So guys, keep the fire burning within!

Until next time...Ciao!